Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Looking for the Light   

The light is with you...while you have the light, believe in the light, so that you may become children of light.

                        John 12:35a, 36


It's been a tough winter here in Chicago. I lost track of how many times I unburied my car after snow storms. Ice made walking outside treacherous. Stir-crazy kids and parents ran out of ideas to occupy themselves on snow days. Bitter temperatures turned us all into hermits. But the snow and ice, although beautiful and annoying, were not the hardest part. For me, the most difficult part of winter is the lack of light. Waking up while it's still dark in the morning. Darkness again by the time I left work in the afternoon. No time to play outside in the evenings. Just dark.


As I write this, we have had one warm day this spring. A mild sixty degrees, sunshine, people wandered outside with squinting eyes, smiles on their faces, greeting their neighbors that they hadn't seen since fall. Snow-drop flowers bloomed and daffodil petals poked their heads out of the ground. Everyone suddenly felt happy again.


In the midst of Holy Week, it's easy to get sucked into the darkness. And in some ways we need to - we need to remember the proclamation of Jesus sharing his body and blood at the Last Supper, the moments of intense prayer in the garden, the beating and crucifixion of our Lord. They are heavy and dark times that settle into our souls.


But we have one advantage that the disciples didn't - we know that the light is coming. We sit in the darkness of this week, but in this scripture passage, we hear Jesus reminding us that he is the light and, even as shadows surround us, we know that the light is not gone forever. It will come again in a few short days.


In this Lenten season, where do you feel darkness surrounding you? Where is your soul heavy? And where do you sense the light preparing to break in?


Early in this passage, the Greeks declare, "We want to see Jesus." And, really, don't we all? Especially in the dark place in our lives, we want his light to come. We want to see Jesus in the midst of it, bringing that tiny glow that will turn into a blazing light. Even now, in the midst of Holy Week, notice the dark, but keep your eyes open for the light, for it is there that we'll see Jesus.


Prayer: Holy Light, as we remember the events of this week, our hearts can feel heavy, grief-filled, dark. Help us to remember that, even in the darkness, your light will come again. Give us eyes to see you there. Amen. 
Rev. Rebecca McClintock
SFTS M.Div. 2007, DASD 2008