Ahhh...the holidays! Or is it Uhhh...the holidays?! For some, this time of year brings joy and smiles abundant. They begin listening to Christmas carols entirely too early (you know who you are) and the thought of decorations, cookie exchanges, and gift-wrapping fill them with glee.
And then there are folks like me. For some reason this time of year makes me feel even more behind, a little more overwhelmed, maybe even a little inadequate. I often start the season with great intentions and with the idea that I'll send cards this year, or I'll remember everyone who should be on my giving list, or maybe even go to a party or two (and no, work parties do not count). Inevitably, just like last year, it always ends the same. I postpone the cards until it's too late, I decide to shorten my "giving" list to family (because technically they have to like what I give them), and each party invite is met with, "I'd love to come!", which means, "I'll think of you as I sit at my computer!".
Each year I try to be one of you crazy, fun-filled "Holiday Happies". I truly do. Just ask the Ghost of Christmases Past. He'll tell you. He'll also roll his eyes.
So, here's my challenge to myself and to you: I'll buy a small box of cards, write short notes of cheer, and pass them out to random people I see who may wear a similar look of holiday angst. I'll add a few unexpected folks to the giving list and not even worry if they like the small token, but hope that they receive it with the intent in which it is given. Maybe if I focus more on what small difference I can make, rather than my inability to be Pinterest-perfect, I can elevate myself to becoming a Holiday Happy!
This year I promise this: To believe in the spirit behind the holiday. To look for someone who needs a dose of it more than I do and offer a smile and a "Merry Christmas". To ignore the pressure of perfection and find the pleasure in small gestures of giving.
Who knows? Maybe there's a party in my future...
But don't push it with the Christmas carols.