When was the last time you admitted you were wrong? Can’t remember? Is it possible that you have been that right for that long? More likely it is simply that it is hard to admit that we are wrong.
It can be a devastating moment when we have to face the truth that we were wrong about our judgment of an individual, that we were wrong in our understanding of some issue, that we were wrong in the way we handled a situation. St. Paul knew this very well indeed!
In the Scripture we are told that on Saul’s [St. Paul] journey to Damascus, a light from the sky suddenly flashed around him and he fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, “Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me?” In that moment of blinding reality, he came to understand for the first time the pain and the hurt his persecution of Jesus’ followers had caused. What made it all the more difficult is the fact that he thought he was doing the right thing.
I think that perhaps many of us need a “Damascus” moment. Maybe it has been the events of this past year or our sense of uncertainty for the future or just our lack of inner peace, but whatever its cause, many of us may have lost focus of what is right in God’s eyes. We could use a time when we come to clearly see that our anger and mistrust is misplaced or that our judgement isn’t as accurate as we thought. We need to be “blinded” by God’s light now and then, in order to see beyond our fears and self-interests and realize the truth.
Learn a lesson from St. Paul; that God’s truth can heal and empower us. Let’s not be afraid to step back and take a “Damascus” moment. Take time for Christ to enlighten us: to see where our anger is getting the better of us or to recognize that we are failing or to see the other side of the equation or to remember that this individual who is the target of our anger is a son or daughter of God.
After his “Damascus” moment, St. Paul accomplished marvelous things. Once his eyes were opened he could do God’s will and so can we. However, we will have to be open to our “Damascus Moment.”