time between the struggles, I learned a lot. Even though it seems weird to say that, I did. I made many poems, in those times. But when I went over to write them, I had forgotten the words I used. In the simple times, when it was very quiet and still here, at Sacred Settlement Prince of Peace, I heard the Lord a lot.  

Every month has its seasons. In January and this month, February, I have learned that even though my heart cannot speak, it speaks what is really going on inside. In this month, I have learned reality is a faint thing as the world goes on. But my heart loves reality, and holds it as long as it can until the next season comes. I have also learned although I am a child, (turning 13 this year, on May 30th) wisdom and understanding is a big thing that I have.  

Also, in this month I have been quieter. I think I have been hearing, and looking more than talking. I feel like in this month, talking is like a pest to some people. Some people try to say something to be friendly to me, (I can tell they do not mean it), and I do not say much back. I feel like silence is good. Some seem to think it is odd, some seem to think they need to say something, even when they are not in the talking mood, and some seem to like it.  

I like when it is just me and Valerie in the common house. She is eating her breakfast at the table and I am working on something at the table. We do not say anything to each other. It gives me the sense of just living life, in the common house. Not having to talk, not having to put on a mask, not having to be really joyful, but just being, our self. I do not think we have to do it anyway. Yes, our community is different, and is unique, because you do not see it much, but, at the same time it is not too unique to me. I have also learned that I am, talented at art. Not to be prideful, or trying to brag. I use to just think, “Yeah, I like doing art.” But not too long ago, I went through a bin of art, I have made in the past 5 months. When I saw it all, I had made in water color, paint, colored pencil, pencil and pen, and in mixed media, I realized how much different types of art I can do!  

I have also noticed I have been making poems in my head a lot. Ones about the supernatural and about beautiful simple things.  

I have also, have been writing a book, which has been a help and an eye opener for me. So far, I have 45 pages. The name is: Under the World of Wisdom. I have also been enjoying watching Lord of the rings with my mom.  

I have discovered in this community, that time is an unknown story. That simple things like the chickens, (for me) have uncovered beautiful moments, with such a small bird. Something the world forgets. And I have discovered that I have a heart, that likes to speak. 

Written from: Avia Beary