"Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.
Herein Lies the peace of God."
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CHAPTER 24
Specialness and Separation

IV. The Forgiveness of Specialness

26 Forgiveness is the end of specialness. Only illusions can be forgiven, and then they disappear. Forgiveness is release from all illusions, and that is why it is impossible but partly to forgive. No one who clings to one illusion can see himself as sinless, for he holds one error to himself as lovely still. And so he calls it "unforgivable" and makes it sin. How can he then give his forgiveness wholly, when he would not receive it for himself? For it is sure he would receive it wholly the instant that he gave it so. And thus his secret guilt would disappear, forgiven by himself.

27 Whatever form of specialness you cherish, you have made sin. Inviolate it stands, strongly defended with all your puny might against the Will of God. And thus it stands against yourself; your enemy, not God's. So does it seem to split you off from God and make you separate from Him as its defender. You would protect what God created not. And yet this idol that seems to give you power has taken it away. For you have given your brother's birthright to it, leaving him alone and unforgiven and yourself in sin beside him, both in misery before the idol that can save you not.

28 It is not you that is so vulnerable and open to attack that just a word, a little whisper that you do not like, a circumstance that suits you not, or an event that you did not anticipate upsets your world and hurls it into chaos. Truth is not frail. Illusions leave it perfectly unmoved [and undisturbed]. But specialness is not the truth in you. It can be thrown off balance by anything. What rests on nothing never can be stable. However large and overblown it seems to be, it still must rock and turn and whirl about with every breeze.

29 Without foundation nothing is secure. Would God have left His Son in such a state, where safety has no meaning? No, His Son is safe, resting on Him. It is your specialness that is attacked by everything that walks and breathes or creeps or crawls or even lives at all. Nothing is safe from its attack, and it is safe from nothing. It will forever more be unforgiving, for that is what it is —a secret vow that what God wants for you will never be and that you will oppose His Will forever. Nor is it possible the two can ever be the same while specialness stands like a flaming sword of death between them and makes them "enemies."

30 God asks for your forgiveness. He would have no separation, like an alien will, rise between what He wills for you and what you will. They are the same, for neither one wills specialness. How could they will the death of love itself? Yet they are powerless to make attack upon illusions. They are not bodies; as One Mind they wait for all illusions to be brought to them and left behind. Salvation challenges not even death. And God Himself, Who knows that death is not your will, must say, "Thy will be done" because you think it is .

31 Forgive the great Creator of the universe, the Source of life, of love and holiness, the perfect Father of a perfect Son, for your illusions of your specialness. Here is the hell you chose to be your home. He chose not this for you. Ask not He enter this. The way is barred to love and to salvation. Yet if you would release your brother from the depths of hell, you have forgiven Him Whose Will it is you rest forever in the arms of peace in perfect safety and without the heat and malice of one thought of specialness to mar your rest. Forgive the Holy One the specialness He could not give and which you made instead.

32 The special ones are all asleep, surrounded by a world of loveliness they do not see. Freedom and peace and joy stand there beside the bier on which they sleep and call them to come forth and waken from their dream of death. Yet they hear nothing. They are lost in dreams of specialness. They hate the call that would awaken them, and they curse God because He did not make their dream reality. Curse God and die, but not by Him Who made not death, but only in the dream. Open your eyes a little; see the savior God gave to you that you might look on him and give him back his birthright. It is yours.

33 The slaves of specialness will yet be free. Such is the Will of God and of His Son. Would God condemn Himself to hell and to damnation? And do you will that this be done unto your savior? God calls to you from him to join His Will to save you both from hell. Look on the print of nails upon his hands that he holds out for your forgiveness. God asks your mercy on His Son and on Himself. Deny them not. They ask of you but that your will be done. They seek your love that you may love yourself. Love not your specialness instead of them. The print of nails are on your hands as well. Forgive your Father. It was not His Will that you be crucified.

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What is the Body.

1 The body is a fence the Son of God imagines he has built to separate parts of his Self from other parts. It is within this fence, he thinks he lives, to die as it decays and crumbles. For within this fence he thinks that he is safe from love. Identifying with his safety, he regards himself as what his safety is. How else could he be certain he remains within the body, keeping love outside?

2 The body will not stay. Yet this he sees as double safety. For the Son of God's impermanence is "proof" his fences work and do the task his mind assigns to them. For if his oneness still remained untouched, who could attack and who could be attacked? Who could be victor? Who could be his prey? Who could be victim? Who the murderer? And if he did not die, what "proof" is there that God's eternal Son can be destroyed?

3 The body is a dream. Like other dreams, it sometimes seems to picture happiness but can quite suddenly revert to fear, where every dream is born. For only love creates in truth, and truth can never fear. Made to be fearful, must the body serve the purpose given it. But we can change the purpose which the body will obey by changing what we think that it is for.

4 The body is the means by which God's Son returns to sanity. Though it was made to fence him into hell without escape, yet has the goal of Heaven been exchanged for the pursuit of hell. The Son of God extends his hand to reach his brother and to help him walk along the road with him. Now is the body holy. Now it serves to heal the mind that it was made to kill.

5 You will identify with what you think will make you safe. Whatever it may be, you will believe that it is one with you. Your safety lies in truth and not in lies. Love is your safety. Fear does not exist. Identify with love, and you are safe. Identify with love, and you are home. Identify with love, and find your Self.

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God is my refuge and security.

1 I will identify with what I think is refuge and security. I will behold myself where I perceive my strength and think I live within the citadel where I am safe and cannot be attacked. Let me today seek not security in danger, nor attempt to find my peace in murderous attack. I live in God. In Him I find my refuge and my strength. In Him is my Identity. In Him is everlasting peace. And only there will I remember who I really am.

2 Let me not seek for idols. I would come, my Father, home to You today. I choose to be as You created me and find the Son whom You created as my Self.

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Lesson 261
God is my refuge and security.

 Sarah's Commentary:
 
Now we are onto a new question, which explains, "The body is a fence the Son of God imagines he has built, to separate parts of his Self from other parts." (W.PII.Q5.1.1) We think our reality is that of a body. Jesus describes the body as a fence. Within this "fence," we think we live only to die and decay. He says that the fence surrounds a great and glorious idea of our reality. "The body cannot know. And while you limit your awareness to its tiny senses, you will not see the grandeur that surrounds you."
(T.18.VIII.2.1‑2) (ACIM OE T.18.IX.72)
 
It is the body that keeps us safe from love. "It is only the awareness of the body that makes love seem limited. For the body is a limit on love. The belief in limited love was its origin, and it was made to limit the unlimited." (T.18.VIII.1.1-3) (ACIM OE T.IX.71) And this is what we want. Really? This seems like a strange idea, as everyone in the world seems to be constantly seeking love, but Jesus says that while we think it is love that we are seeking, we are actually keeping ourselves safe from it.
 
When we look at all the psychological and physical defenses that we put up against being hurt and feeling vulnerable, we can indeed see how we are trying to keep ourselves safe from love. Real love can have no fear attached to it and needs no defense. What are we protecting ourselves from with our defenses except love? Our fear of love is our fear of losing the seemingly protective boundaries that we put around ourselves. We protest that we do not fear love, but are in search of it. Yet in order to keep our individuality and specialness, we also keep our defenses and our control.
 
The ego does not know what love is, but it does sense that it has an enemy. It is the Son of God, the decision-maker, that it fears for it knows that we can choose against the ego and end its reign over us. That is why the ego has devised a plan to keep itself safe. It keeps us from knowing that we have a choice for something other than the ego. When we don't know that we have a choice available to us in our minds, we side with the wrong-mind---the home of the ego---as it is all that is in our awareness and with it comes the belief in the reality of the body. The belief that we are bodies and personalities different from everyone else and living in this world, is thus never deeply questioned.
 
Now we are called to put this belief to question. What if we are wrong about our reality? What if our reality is not the body at all? Our identification with our body is kept intact as long as we continue to identify with the ego thought system of separation. When we chose to run away from God's Love and accepted the thought system of the ego, we forgot that we are the Son of God. The thought system of sin and guilt, accepted into our minds, was so horrendous to us that we left the mind. This mindlessness keeps us safe from God's Love because it means we can't make another choice as long as we don't know that we have a decision-making mind. Now we seem to live in separate bodies, separate from each other, each contained within this fence, with space between us, and where we no longer see Oneness but only separate parts. "Minds are joined; bodies are not." (T.18.VI.3.1) (ACIM OE T.18.VII.51) That is why bodies were made. They were made not to join. Only minds can join.
 
Why would we choose safety from God in a body when the body is going to die? Why would we turn to the body for our safety when it is such a fragile, impermanent organism? We do this because it provides us with daily proof that we are what we say we are, that death is real, and that God is dead. It demonstrates to us that the ego's strategy has succeeded and that God does not exist. It tells us that only the separated self we think we are is real and that God is the illusion. The world seems real and solid, and God is just a myth. The impermanence of the body proves that the strategy of the ego works. It establishes that separation is a fact, death is real, and God cannot exist because there cannot be both separation and Oneness. It is one or the other.
 
What is the truth? Is the truth duality or Oneness? If Oneness is the truth, there can be no victim or victimizer. There is no one to attack or be attacked. There is just One Mind. Yet in that scenario, we don't exist. Thus, if our existence as individuals is a reality, it can only be true if God and Oneness have been annihilated, which is exactly what the ego says has happened. Because the ego tells us that we have destroyed God so we could have a separate existence, it offers us an escape into the body and into the world where we can be safe from God and thus safe from His Love. Even more important, it is a place where we believe we can be safe from the punishment we think is coming to us because of our perceived attack on God.
 
Of course, none of this is in our awareness, but the thought system we hold is that attack has offered us what we want, which is our emancipation from God. Now we see value in attack because we got what we wanted through our attack on God. We became the victimizer, but we also saw value in being a victim. As a victim, we refuse to take responsibility for what we have done. We say it is God Who abandoned us. The thought system of attack and defense is now held in the mind and played out in the world. It is a world of "one or the other." It is a world of gaining at someone's expense. It is a world of bargaining where we try to get for ourselves what we think we need. It is a world of winners and losers.
 
We strategize, bargain, and manipulate to get what we want. This is the basis of our special relationships. These are the relationships bound by anger because we are required to sacrifice to get what we want. "It is impossible for the ego to enter into any relationship without anger for the ego believes that anger makes friends." (T.15.VII.2.3) (ACIM OE T.15.VIII.66) They are relationships of reciprocity. "The ego establishes relationships only to get something. And it would keep the giver bound to itself through guilt." (T.15.VII.2.1-2) (ACIM OE T.15.VIII.65) We try to give as little as we can to get as much as we can, and what we are trying to get is the love we think we lack.
 
Our experience of having been born into a body has obliterated from our minds the knowledge of where we came from. Now we project our own forgetting onto God and we say that God has forgotten us! The lie that the ego has made us believe is that God is our enemy, and that He is pursuing us in order to punish us for our sins. We have come to believe that we are entirely on our own. We feel a strong sense of abandonment. We simply have no memory of our home. Oh yes, we can tell many stories of past lives or of going back to the womb and our experience there, but we don't know what preceded our existence as bodies. Jesus said in the Bible, "Before Abraham was, I am." We have always been. Now with the benefit of this teaching, we are given a way to question what the ego is and what we have accepted into our minds. As long as we identify with its thought system without question, we will continue in this cycle of birth and death. It is all held up by the belief that we have sinned against God and are guilty. It is a pattern we relive over lifetimes, and it is also a pattern of being victimizers or victims of each other.
 
While we don't die when the body dies, we think we will die when it (the fence) dies because we have identified ourselves so much with it. We think the body is real and it is what we are. We pay a huge price as a result of our identification with the body. To us, it seems worth it because we want to maintain our separation, even though we suffer in our perceived aloneness. "And if he did not die, what 'proof' is there that God's eternal Son can be destroyed?" (W.PII.Q5.2.9) We thought we would be safe from God in the body and in the world, and we thought we could escape God's punishment for our sin; but sickness, aging, and death show us that this is not at all the case. The body, where the ego assured us we would be safe, is very vulnerable. Jesus is asking us to question the whole setup. How could this vulnerable body ever keep us safe, and from what do we need to be kept safe, anyway? The whole ego story can now be questioned and exposed as the lie that it is.
 
To put this into practice, we need to look at how our daily lives exemplify the lies of the ego and to question the false beliefs and misperceptions we hold. As we learn to observe our thoughts and beliefs without judgment, we can increasingly see that "The body is a dream. Like other dreams it sometimes seems to picture happiness, but can quite suddenly revert to fear, where every dream is born. For only love creates in truth, and truth can never fear." (W.PII.Q5.3.1-3)
 
This Lesson reminds me of the song by Resta called "Person" where the words of the song speak about the body. "It can't see. It can't hear. It can't feel anything. It does what it's told, never raises a stink. It can't think, can't create, was not born, does not die, but we say it is "I." I'm a person. It's a wee little bundle of water and dust, but feed it and clean it and clothe it we must. House it, insure it, transport it in cars. Take it out to the bars. It's a person. A body, an image, with secrets inside---a private and personal person."
 
Jesus reminds us that our safety lies in God, who is "my refuge and security." (W.261) This is reminiscent of Psalm 46, but the focus is different. It is not about God smiting our enemies and keeping us safe in our bodies. It is about our true safety and security in our Identity, as the Christ Self, one that can never shift nor change and has nothing to do with the body. The shift away from our identity with the body to that of mind is a process that requires time. It is why time was given us.
 
We are increasingly being led away from the belief that we live in the body. The Course is trying to get us to disengage ourselves from our identification with this limited, fragile, and vulnerable self and to strengthen our sense of identity with the God Self by seeing that we are not separate from each other. By forgiving our misperceptions of our brothers, we increasingly see that we are the same. We share the same needs and the same purpose. Everything we experience in the world is love or a call for love. As we heal our misperceptions of each other and bring our mistaken perceptions of ourselves and others to awareness, our identification with the body, personality, and image is lessened. We are not being asked to deny our bodies, but to put them to a different purpose. Our only useful purpose here is to do the healing work. In this regard, everything in the world can serve our purpose of awakening from this dream.
 
I remember when I felt guided to go to Sedona to do a year of study and contemplation of the Course. Driving by myself across the desert in the dead of night, I had a moment of overwhelming fear and wondered what the hell I was doing, putting myself at potential risk. There were hardly any cars on that part of the road, and I felt a momentary panic as I thought of what would happen if my car broke down. This thought was followed by a bigger realization that I was truly safe and protected. There was nothing to fear. God truly is my refuge and security. The only safety I truly have is with Him. Further, I felt so strongly guided to go to Sedona and everything had fallen so beautifully into place for my being there that I felt this journey was in His Hands. When I experience fear, I engage in self-talk where I remind myself of the truth. When I took this trip some years ago, my focus was still very much on the safety of my body. But the truth is that we are eternal beings, and no matter what the condition of the body, it is still not who we are. We are eternally safe.
 
What does the Lesson mean when it says, "Let me today seek not security in danger"? (W.261.1.3) How do we try to find safety in danger? Think about the ways we try to feel safe and secure in the world. There are many things we look to for our protection, safety, and security, including the food we eat, clothes we buy, money, car, house, insurance, friends, and whatever we surround ourselves with. Our psychological defenses are also made for this purpose.
 
When we look to the world for security, it gives us an illusion of safety, but the world is a place of fear as it is made from fear. There can be no security here because there is nothing permanent and consistent that we can completely rely on. We also seek for security in the body, which is constantly in danger. How quickly the body can be hurt or die; we know it just takes an instant. It is hardly a place of refuge or security! We spend a lot of energy, putting up physical and psychological defenses to keep ourselves from being hurt. We are constantly trying to stay safe. Over and over, we see that our investment in our bodies for protection does not work.
 
When we read of our attempt to find our "peace in murderous attack," (W.261.1.3) we can see how this too is played out in the world, where wars are fought to preserve and protect the peace. When we look around, we can see this does not work, neither on the world stage nor in our own lives. Attack will never result in peace. War will never bring peace. To identify ourselves with the body and the world is to identify with the ephemeral and the non-peaceful.
 
I am inspired when I read of those who have learned this Lesson in some form. This was the case of Terry Anderson some years ago when he was abducted in Beirut and held hostage for close to seven years by a group of Hezbollah Shiite Muslims, who were supported by Iran. His request for a Bible was granted him and with the reading of the Bible, slowly the chains were removed from his mind, both physically and metaphorically. During this time, he kept praying for his release and for his safety, but he had a realization that this was not the right prayer. It was when he started praying for understanding, for strength and for grace that he was able to see his captors as himself, and soon after, he was released. I have been equally inspired by my reading of Peace Pilgrim and of others like her, who have become an example of the power of forgiveness, which results in complete fearlessness.
 
Can you imagine that when we truly know who we are, nothing can shake our sense of safety and security? We experience being held in God’s embrace in the quiet place in each of us where we rest in God. We experience it when we trust God, calling on Him instead of turning to the ego. We know it when we no longer feel so alone and remember Who walks with us. We know it when we trust that all things work together for good. We know it when we feel bold and confident that all is well regardless of what it looks like.
 
Today, let us not look to idols to keep us safe. Today, we choose our reality. We are with God right in this moment. Our bodies are quite simply no more than wind-up cosmic toys. We can withdraw our identification with them. God is our home. We rest in Him. This is where we can escape from the belief in the world and the body. See yourself above the battleground where you are safe. Watch the movie of your circumstances from the theater where Jesus is watching with you, and smile at the thought that any of this is serious. While your wind-up toy is running around doing things focused on its well-being, you are safe in God. God is your refuge and security.
 
Just as I write this, my son called to say he has had a horrendous accident and is in the hospital for deep cuts to his face requiring many stitches. The news throws me into fear, worry, and concern. I tell myself that a healed mind would remain at peace. Since this is not my current state, I turn to Spirit and ask how am I to see this. I ask for help that I may remember who he is and see him as healed and whole. I look more deeply at my fear and choose to go deeper into the mind to uncover false beliefs that I am holding about this situation. I feel my helplessness, as he is in another city and I can’t be there. I put him in the hands of Jesus, recognizing that he is the only healer. I recognize that worry is an attack thought. I engage in helpful self-talk, reminding myself that the script is written and all things work together for good. I delete the need to understand, and then I smile at the synchronicity of what I am writing in the commentary and how this situation invites me to look at how much I believe in what I am saying!
 
The body can serve a holy purpose in the world. We are not asked to deny our bodies, but to put them to their proper use. The body does not change, but the purpose that the mind puts it to can now be changed. Now we use it to join with our brothers instead of to separate from them.

Love and blessings, Sarah

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