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Waiting is hard for me. I’m not by nature a patient person, and I am always looking forward to what is to come, sometimes to the point of failing to stay in the moment. So much of waiting is tied up in anxiety or in eagerness: waiting for the plane to arrive; for the baby to be born; for grades to be posted; for the lab results to come back; for the election results to be announced. And waiting for Christmas to come.
When my daughter was a small child, she once asked, “Won’t Christmas EVER come?” I often felt that way as a child, until I learned that Christmas has already come; that the Gift has already been given; that God is with us every minute, with no waiting. This year I have made an effort to spend each day appreciating the inner peace that can come with sitting in silence; with meditation; with preparing my heart for the gift that is here now. I am trying not to let my mind jump ahead to the what if’s that may come, nor to the doubts and fears that I may have for the days ahead in these uncertain times. God ‘s presence is the gift that calms me and centers me and fills my waiting with peace and joy.
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