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My pardon journey started in 2022, when my family and I decided I should seek a pardon from the Pennsylvania Governor’s Office after years of living under the stigma of criminal convictions from a 2007 arrest. The judge from my case even supported my receiving a pardon.
The years after my convictions were marked by navigating the invisible minefield of “collateral consequences.” Things as simple as traveling, adopting a pet, or working at a cardboard factory would prove virtually impossible. I drifted between low-paying jobs, enduring countless interviews where I was forced to relive my past in front of strangers who had no interest in hiring me. Each rejection cut deeper, leaving me with hives, anxiety, and the crushing weight of hopelessness. The repeating cycle of rejection, despair, and recovery grew, with each failure, more reminiscent of Sisyphus pushing his boulder up a mountain. Yet through the shame, depression, and self-loathing, one desire kept me moving: the need to help others. Finding opportunities to do so was an uphill battle until I discovered the Philadelphia Lawyers for Social Equity (PLSE) and their Pardon Project.
For the first time in years, I experienced genuine empathy. The compassion I found at PLSE became the cornerstone of my resilience. Helping others as a peer gave me purpose, and slowly, I began to heal. I eventually adopted a mantra mentioned during a Pardon Project Steering Committee meeting: Keep Hope Alive.
By 2025, I had become Chair of the Pardon Project Steering Committee and was working for PLSE as a Grant Assistant, fighting for funding to sustain their efforts in Philadelphia. Since beginning my pardon journey in 2022, I have experienced several moments I will always cherish. I was honored to receive the Rev. Michelle Excellence in Advocacy Award alongside PA Senator Lisa Baker. I stood beside Secretary Watson from the Board of Pardons at a pardon clinic hosted by PA Senator Patty Kim, serving as a peer-support representative for community members seeking clemency. I met and spoke with lawmakers in Harrisburg about the importance of clemency for those involved in the justice system. I also joined statewide advocacy efforts aimed at improving the pardon process. If I had not taken those first steps once more up the seemingly insurmountable mountain of despair, I would have missed out on these incredible experiences that restored my sense of worth and purpose.
On August 7, 2025, during my Merit Review, the Board of Pardons voted on whether my case would advance to a public hearing. I received zero votes out of five. I was disappointed, but I remained standing, proud of what I had overcome. I believe Douglas Adams best captured how I felt in that moment when he said, “I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I have ended up where I needed to be.”
The journey, not the pardon, was the real gift. It is my testament that even if clemency never comes, the process can be transformative. I am deeply grateful for the unwavering support of my family, friends, and colleagues. It is my wish that every Pennsylvanian living with a criminal record could experience the same transformation and grow into a version of themselves that far too many never get to see. I will endeavor to stay on this path, walking beside those who need it, and offering the very hope that carries me until it becomes their own.
Keep Hope Alive.
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