Life (and really, Yoga) is process of unfolding, unpacking, and letting go of all the ways we build up veils and walls around ourselves. We often shield most of who we are, except to our most intimate friends and family. Or, conversely, we shield ourselves too much from intimate relationships and we end up with superficial acquaintances which don't challenge or inspire us to dig deep and chip away at those false layers.
I'm so thankful for Yoga and our studio/community, which has brought to my life so many incredible friendships and actually deepened relationships which already existed. As the practice of Yoga clears the way for greater knowledge of ourselves, it in turn, allows us to share that more clearly with others. In the past 15 years, I have become much more open, more humble, and more comfortable in the process of discovering (& uncovering) who I am.
I read a sentence last week in one of my favorite books, Mark Nepo's The Book of Awakening, which took my breath away because it spoke exactly to a place where I find myself in my journey right now...
"We have been battered by modern times into obsessive problem solvers, but as life pares us down into only what is essential, it becomes clear that the deepest sufferings of heart and spirit cannot be solved, only witnessed and held."
OBSESSIVE PROBLEM SOLVER... oh yeah, that's been me. I have felt the responsibility to take on ALL the challenges and on some (naive) level, have thought that I COULD.
But, I can't any longer. And, the "aha! moment" was learning that it's NOT my responsibility to have to. Letting go and sometimes becoming a witness instead of always an active participant. To hold space for myself and others. And, to be held up in the knowledge that it will be... and I will be... okay.
I'd love to hear how your journey is going!