Has anyone ever asked you, “When were you saved?” It’s an interesting question, and the asker usually means “when did you consciously give your heart to God?” or “when did you recognize a stirring inside of you that felt holy and when did you say yes to it?” These are beautiful stories to share and to hear.
And yet, “when were you saved?” is also a tough question. It indicates that you were saved that one time. That you said yes to God that one time, and then you and God went off, holding hands into the sunset, never to turn back.
But, if you have spent any time with God, if you have tried to follow after Jesus, you probably know that one and done is not really how it works. You probably know that our relationship with God, our faithfulness to the call of Jesus, our connection to the Holy Spirit–all of these things can ebb and flow. Our experience of God, and commitment to God, is circuitous at best. As the hymn “Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing” so expertly names: “prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, prone to leave the God I love.”
When I first began to learn about Wesleyan theology, or the way we understand the work of God in the United Methodist Church, I learned about the via salutis, or the way of salvation. It teaches that our relationship with God is a journey, marked by grace. This grace draws us in, convinces us that we are loved, and moves through us to lead us toward greater holiness. When my professor taught about the via salutis, he drew a spiral. As grace draws us in, we move closer to the center of the spiral, where we perfectly love God and our neighbor. And yet, inevitably, we backslide–we get bored, busy, tired, tempted, distracted–and move away from the center of the spiral. We wander. It’s human. This is why God gives us the season of Lent. A season to turn back, and to take small steps, through the grace of God, back toward the heart of love. Lent is the season that reminds us that we are always being saved, that God is always reaching out, waiting patiently for our return.
And during this season of Lent, we will let the stories of one particular disciple help us understand our wandering hearts and our steadfast God more deeply. Simon Peter was a faithful and fickle disciple, whose life was a testament to wandering and turning back, wandering and turning back. Through the lens of his life, we will walk toward the cross, and back toward the heart of love. We hope you will join us!
Lenten blessings,
Pastor Laura
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