“How much have we taken for granted?
... the awakening of our minds by the Spirit to truth
about God and the world.” - Ian Reid
At the time I was going through it I really didn’t understand what was happening until years later. It wasn’t like
Thomas Merton’s ‘epiphany’ at the corner of Fourth and Walnut in Louisville, but rather a slow seepage of savant-like juices, gelling years later.
Some call it ‘mid-life’; I call it searching. I became a retreat junkie, earned an intensive experiential Professional Enneagram Certification, and journeyed on foreign pilgrimages. As a World History teacher, I was familiar with ancient world religions: Zoroastrianism, Hinduism, and Judaism; I practiced Kundalini yoga with a Sikh, I dabbled in Buddhism, and I read what Confucius had to say. I was enthralled by Rumi, Tagore, Hafiz, and Kahlil Gibran. The prophets and poets, and particularly ancient pictographs of cave dwellers, confirmed what I interpreted to be true: there is an afterlife for which we all search.
It was a slow and arduous search. Then one day a spiritual guide told me, “If you think you have ‘arrived’ and you, on the spiritual scale of one to 10, think that you’re an 8, you’re probably about a one and a half.” Was I taking my spiritual life for granted?
Then one day I found myself in jail. By that time, as a member of the Catholic Lay Preaching Guild, our Archbishop Patricio Flores urged us to take the Word to our incarcerated brothers and sisters. Leading weekly Liturgy of the Word services for the inmates awakened my mind to the Word’s message, to the Spirit, to truth. I fell passionately in love with the Word.
Maybe by now I might be about a two and a half. I take very little for granted. And I am constant in my self-understanding as a
“Guest House” (Rumi) – as Rumi poetically describes a human being as a guest house where joy, sorrows, and malice visit:
Be grateful for whoever comes,
Because each has been sent
As a guide from beyond.
--by Jan