I had the great pleasure and fortune to spend last week in Santa Fe and it's surroundings. My partner and I enjoyed hiking, art, food, wine, rest and Life itself. It was all in all a lovely vacation and we were blessed with easy travels both ways.
As I look back at that week, what stands out to me the most, is how life filled us with great beauty and joy, a sense of wholeness and contentment. And at the same time, it showed us the complete opposite. The news about the decision by our supreme court to overturn abortion rights hit us both hard. The sadness and the hollow sense of disbelief made our hearts very heavy. I can see why, and how, this is happening, but it's really difficult to understand and accept that this is where we are at in 2022. And still, when we wandered out into the gorge of the Rio Grande, when we hiked up the hills outside Cuba, and when I sank my body into the cool waters of the Rio Grande, I felt completely whole. Life made sense. And for that I am so very grateful. The fact that if I spend time out among the trees, flowers, mountains and rivers, I can have that experience. I can clearly feel the power of Life itself.
It seems important to me that we all figure out, and revisit, what it is that allows us to feel this way in the midst of the madness of our world. I personally don't think I could do this life without knowing, and regularly seeking time with, the places and the activities that allow me to feel whole and one with Life.
I hope, from the bottom of my heart, that you do the same for yourself this summer. As much and as often as you need it. Finding this balance makes it possible for me to be with the painful. But I know, and have known for a long time, I am the only one that can create this balance for myself. I also know that listening to others about how much time I can or "should" spend this way, is not necessarily helpful. Some of us need more then others, and the only thing that matters is that we all figure out our own needs one day at a time. It's like rooting one foot steadily into Life on a large scale, and root the other in the every-day experience of the society we live in. The way I see it, both are equally important. It's what makes it possible to keep walking forward, with hope and trust that we will keep moving in the right direction. And that even though we just took a gigantic step backwards in our country, we will be taking two steps forward again. Perhaps not as soon as I would like, but that we will.
"Hope is being able to see that there is light
despite all the darkness."