LENTEN DEVOTION for Monday, March 12



Emmanuel, where are you now?



Abba Sisoes said, "Seek God, but do not seek where God dwells."

The Psalmist said,
"For God alone my soul waits in silence;
    from him comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
    my fortress; I shall never be shaken.

How long will you assail a person,
    will you batter your victim, all of you,
    as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
    They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
    but inwardly they curse.

For God alone my soul waits in silence,
    for my hope is from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
    my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
    my mighty rock, my refuge is in God." (Psalm 62:1-7)


Even in the desert, free of all distraction, away from commotion and rid of clutter, Simon suffers from a wandering mind and restless heart. He is constantly interrupted. In the arid wilderness of Egypt, Simon experiences a dry and barren desert within. He is not alone. Many who fled to the desert had such an experience. Even without TV, tablet, phone, family, co-workers, neighbors, e-mails, daily tasks, traffic and enticing entertainment, we can get distracted. With all that we fill our days, we too feel a void.

Amma Syncletica warned that beginning the spiritual journey or even starting a new spiritual practice is always difficult and filled with many obstacles. We try to pray, but we find no words. We give something up only to find it back in our hands. We try meditation, but we can't find peace of mind. We try reading the Bible or a devotional book, but it doesn't speak to us. Even after spiritual disciplines are well-practiced, monastic masters complained of distraction and a desert or "darkness of the soul," to use St. John of the Cross' phrase. The things we always did to find faith, hope and peace don't work any longer. While often rich and rewarding, the spiritual life involves struggle.

The advice given for these difficult moments is simple and perhaps not what one wants to hear. That is, stay the course. In the words of Proverbs, "Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you." Stay committed to the practice. Be faithful to the discipline. Keep praying. Try again. Continue listening. Read on. Be firm in your commitments.

There is real spiritual wisdom in the advice: "fake it 'til you make it." Keep on as if it works...until it does. You may not feel you are advancing. You may think it is all hard work and no reward. But then, when you least expect it, God happens. Then, as Syncletica says, there is "ineffable joy."  


I turn not from difficulty and hardship, O God my rock and refuge. Be my strength and nurture me now in my time of need. As you promise, you are with me in my struggles. Amen.   

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