To be present in the moment is a choice. And as Mirabai Bush says "when we choose to be in the moment, not caught in memory or expectation, there are always new ways of seeing, always something new to learn". This is why the practice on the mat changes, continuously, over the weeks, months and years. It's been so many years by now that I know this is how it goes, but it can still bring me to a state of awe. As I investigate "being" through my practice, new experiences take place, dots are suddenly connected that weren't before. What felt whole or complete now feels whole in a different way. And just like Mirabai expresses, I have the feeling that this process will never end. And how could it, really? For it to end I would have to stop changing, and that is impossible as long as I am in this body.
I am about to take a workshop with Rodney this afternoon, so writing this brings me back a bunch of years to one of his teacher-trainings, in which he gently cautioned us all. He told us to be careful when we think we know something. To be aware that we close down if we think this is it, that we know it.
Rodney's warning echoes in my mind now and then. I grew up under circumstances where I was
misled to believe false statements and misinformation. As I came to realize this in my early twenties, truth became increasingly important to me. I wanted to know the facts whenever possible.You can probably see how yoga was helpful to me in attempting to remove the veils of false information. To clearly see what actually is taking place. But this also led me to "hold on" to truth at times, and Rodney's teaching was very helpful. It helped me to see that truth changes, as life, I and the people around me change. And the only way we can stay open to the truth is to continuously choose to be in the moment. Can we bring the wisdom from past experiences, but look at this moment with fresh eyes at the same time? This is my question.