Moving in the best of circumstances is challenging. Moving in the midst of a pandemic brings the challenge to a new level, deepens the process.
Moving yourself is challenging. Moving an entire community brings an intensity I often feel unprepared for, to small for.
Moving on a whole can be incredibly joyous, exciting, everything fresh, a new beginning.
I find myself straddling each of those places daily - making decisions about where we are now, planning our new location, crying and in a ball in one moment, upright and joyous in the next. The moments have been challenging to navigate. There is much to consider with each decision I am making. Many of the decisions are
heart breaking for me.
Please know I am reflecting on the whole – you, Mudita staff, your families, our larger community, our future Mudita family, even your pets!!! I am continuing to work diligently to keep the space safe and welcoming for those that need to be there. We have limited the use of props, are cleaning what is used daily, and of course staying within the guidelines of small gatherings.
As we prepare to say goodbye to our old space and move to our new, we have a very sparse schedule, modified to the bare bones – on most days one offering, a few days two. Heart breaking.
Miraculously, those classes are being offered both live and virtual. We now have a microphone and once we figure out how to use it, not only will you see us virtually but you should be able to hear us! My hope is that the combination of these two offerings serves the whole. That brings me joy!
For those of you supporting me as I make each
heart-breaking
decision, I am so very grateful. Truly. Thank you.
I know this will come a surprise to you(!!!), but in all of these moments the words of David Whyte come to mind:
Your heart is going to break anyway,
why not be doing something that brings you alive as it breaks.
The truth is everything about Mudita brings me joy. Teaching you, sharing my passion, watching you grow, brings me alive again and again.
My heart is breaking daily.
Joy is arising in that space.
Every day.