Jesus called a little child to Him and stood the child before His followers. Then He said, "I tell you the truth, you must change and become like little children. Otherwise, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.
The greatest person in the kingdom of heaven is the one who makes himself humble like this child.
Matthew 18:2-4 NCV
Whatever You have for me, God, I want it. I'll take it however You want to give it to me...
The words were simple, yet profound.
Challenging, yet ultimately freeing.
There I was. In conversation. Listening to a story of what God had done.
The person who was speaking was so excited. And I, who was listening, was so trying to be.
But although I was hearing what was being said, I was having an inward talk with God that went something like this: God, that can not have been You. You wouldn't do it that way. There is no way that was You...
And what happened next rocked me to my core.
Just as I was finishing my internal thought, the person said: ...whatever God has for me, I want it and I'll take it however, wherever He wants to give it!
And that's when it happened.
In that moment, in an instant, Holy Spirit highlighted to me the difference between my thoughts and this person's. The difference between my heart and theirs.
And what He said was this: humility.
Humility. The difference between
I'll take it as long as it's comfortable to me, God and I'll take it however You wanna give it to me, God.
The difference between trusting God or trusting myself. The difference between moving forward or staying where I am. The difference between excitement or passivity. Passion or criticism. Effectiveness or frustration.
One simple word: humility.
The humility of a small child. The humility to love. To trust. To receive. To rejoice.
The humility to say yes, no matter how it looks, because I trust the One speaking. I trust the One giving. I trust the One loving.
The humility to say: I don't totally get it, I don't totally understand it, but I don't have to, because I know the One who does.
The humility to be led, to be guided. By my Papa God, my Heavenly Father. The One who loves me and all those around me - more than I ever could!