News from Hannah Wilson
What comes first in a relationship love or time?
Continued from the August issue:
How can one put in the time— the type of time that matters—if you don’t already love them, at least a little, with the kind of love that God has? I have been kidding myself that love like that will come with time without God’s help.
So, I try to pray like I mean it. I prayer journal with complements, I pray touching on their characteristics, I pray about what I saw in them that day, I prayer journal slaughtering the spellings of names and I pray smiling with God at their beauty.
Some past prayer journals:
“We don't fall in love because we memorize or study You, not necessarily, it takes firsthand experience to "taste and see that the Lord is good". But the romantic in me can’t help but admit when I like someone, I stare from afar. I memorize certain gestures, I can reference a specific kind of laugh or tone of voice, because I've been watching. God, I didn't fall in love with You through facts, but now that I have, I swoon over facts about You. I like to sit and watch Your glory bounding across the sky when you coax the sun from its sleeping chambers. I love to memorize things about you because I love the way saying it back makes me feel! I look for You everywhere, trying to chart Your every move because whenever I see evidence of You my heart skips a beat and I feel Your love’s intentionality with me! I do stalkerish things toward You all the time but it doesn't feel like it because with every fact swooned over, every action I stop and stare at, every time I see You working, I see Your vastly larger love for me—it’s loud and proud and presence all around me. And it just feels like a romance. And I am brought to my knees humbled by just how much more You love me, and how holy You truly are.”
I challenge you not to just spend time hoping that love will come in your relationships, but to spend time praying to God about those relationships, knowing that He is the only one who can grant the kind of love you should be giving.