A Wife's Heartfelt Prayer
I praise you for your gracious love. You have blessed me beyond anything I could have hoped or imagined. I am so undeserving of your mercy, yet you choose to extend your forgiveness to me each and every day. Thank you, precious Lord.
I am grateful for all you have given me. I am thankful for a husband who loves me and I love him too. O God, even though we love each other, there is a mistress within our marriage and it breaks my heart.
You know all things, Lord. You know that the mistress I speak of is pornography. I just can't compete with that, Lord. I love my husband so much. I have tried everything I can think of to prove my love to him, but it's just not enough. He keeps running back to that seductive mistress. So today, I surrender my husband to you, O God. Only you can help him. Only you can heal this broken marriage.
I will meditate on your Word, Father. Psalm 51 - Have mercy on us, O God. Your love is unfailing and you are full of compassion. Cleanse us from our sins, from ALL our sins. Pornography is disgusting. It makes me sick to my stomach to think of what my husband has seen. I feel physically ill, but wait...is that how my sin makes you feel, God? I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Forgive me, Father. Help me to forgive my husband. Cleanse my husband from all of his sins, too. Wash him and make him whiter than snow. Father, let my husband truly believe he is forgiven. I know he is sorry. Every time he views that filthy mistress, he is sorry afterward. His bones are crushed. Lift that weight from my husband, O God. Free him from this mistress that has so clenched his heart. Create in him a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within him; a spirit that will not be moved from you, God. Do not cast him away from your presence. Do not take him away from me either, Lord. I love him so very much. Fill him with your Holy Spirit that every thought he thinks will glorify you, our Creator. Restore to my husband the joy of your salvation. Remind him how much you love him; that you gave your only Son to die for him. You counted him as precious. Help him realize just how precious he is in your sight only because of Jesus. Grant him a willing spirit to sustain him. God please take away his desire to view pornography. Give him willingness to serve you, and only you, fully and completely.
O God, maybe my husband will be able to help someone else one day. Maybe he will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you. O Father, the thought of that is so exciting to me. My eyes are welling up at the possibility of my husband being set free from the wicked mistress; so free that he can openly speak of the God who saves him. Let his tongue sing of your righteousness. O Lord, open his lips, and his mouth will declare your praise.
I surrender my husband to you, O God, yet you do not delight in sacrifice. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. Give my husband a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart. Bring him to his knees and then lift him up to praise you with his life for the rest of his life. O God, you will not despise him. You are full of love and compassion. You have forgiven me and I am free to forgive him.
Thank you, gracious Father.
Let this be done in the name of Jesus, our Redeemer.