A Few Words From Pastor Bryan...
Recently, more than a few people have told me that they have "trust issues." They've been burned, betrayed, heartbroken, let down, lied to, left behind, left alone, left vulnerable and exposed, or been just plain disappointed too many times. They tell me it's just easier not to trust, not to get their hopes up, take care of themselves, and to pretty much make sure they don't allow themselves to count on anyone or anything. Including God. Often especially God.
So I've been thinking about this. And you know what I think?
I think it's actually harder NOT to trust God.
Of course if you're not sure you believe in God or not then you're not going to be able to trust God much if at all. Even then I'd suggest you try to trusting as if you knew for certain that God is real and that God is Love Itself. You know-- "fake it 'til you make it." But I'm talking here primarily to those of us who DO believe in God and who are drawn to the teachings of Jesus and to the God of Jesus.
After a lot of years (I've been consciously and rather passionately seeking God for 47 years now) of trying to follow Jesus, it's all gotten very simple for me. Oh I could dive into the quagmire of complexities regarding just how God "works" and how prayer works and what's mine to do and not do when it comes to any number of issues like financial security or my own personal happiness. You know me. I swim in those questions and nuances all the time.
But it really all comes down to this. I'm choosing--and it's always a choice--to simply seek God first--in my own imperfect and flawed but sincere and grace-filled way--and to trust that no matter what does or doesn't happen, I'll be in and with God. Which means I'll be held in the loving embrace of the Creator of the Universe. Which means everything will ultimately be okay. In fact more than okay. Everything is leading to a beautiful, Love- centered culmination, either here on earth or on the other side of the Mystery.
So if things aren't going my way, or I mess up and go on a painful shame spiral, or my ego takes a beating because someone is unfair or cruel to me, or if some worst-case scenario unfolds for me and/or those I love most (and God please don't get any Job-like test ideas here!), then I'm going to trust that God will be with me and--as I've asked you to "repeat after me" several times in sermons--I'm going to trust that "God will give me whatever I need, to face whatever I've got to face."
Maybe you're thinking, well I can't do that. Or for some reason you're afraid to. Well not to sound obnoxious, but, if you want to, and you keep wanting to, then I personally have no doubt that God will give you that gift of trust. Just keep asking for it and be truly open to it. And choose it whenever you know the choice is yours.
So all of this is why I say I think it's easier to trust God than not to. You have no idea how much peace I'm feeling right now as I write these words to you. Oh I've got lots going on, like many of you, and I could get anxious and stressed about a number of things. But the simple truth is that I'm not worried about a darn thing. Why? Because I'm trusting God with all of it and with all of me. And yes, I'm human. I lose this "blessed assurance" sometimes. But not for very long anymore, because as I said, trusting God is a choice, and I'm choosing trust. And I'll work hard to do my part always, but this takes all the pressure off.
I think maybe this is what Jesus meant in that verse I preached from last Sunday. He said, in Matthew 11,
"Come to me, all you who are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me. For my burden is light and my yoke is easy."
Yeah. It's way easier to trust God than not to, and for that I'm so deeply grateful.
Hope to see you Sunday,
Pastor B
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