If you've known me or been reading my newsletter for three years or more, or perhaps seen me "in action" when I was teaching, coaching, or developing websites, e-newsletters, databases, or other computer-related stuff, you might be surprised to hear that I've never really embraced such work as my calling. This is despite attaining my Master of Social Work and being known first as "The Computer Therapist - Guiding You Gently Into the Information Age" and then "The Computer Spirit - You are Not Alone," as well as in the many years prior when I worked in the NYC corporate world. I've enjoyed the work and the people immensely -- as was easily observable -- but I never felt that I was doing what I was meant to be doing, nor helping people in a substantial way in this thing called Life. Intellectually I knew I was helping people with more than just teaching them software or collaborating with them on their e-newsletter, that in some way my presence was important for them. But, as I said, it was intellectual, and in my restlessness and yearning, I kept searching and waiting to find "It."
However, I recently started working with a medical intuitive and healer, and what I have to say is "Whoa!" or perhaps it's "Wow!" My being has been
, unblocked, healed of a number of past lives, had limiting beliefs discarded, and more. In other words, healed to some extent in some large ways through phenomena (extraordinary, remarkable means). I am reminded of Carl Jung's talk with
about huge emotional displacements and rearrangements, of ideas, emotions, and attitudes which were once the guiding forces of one's life that could suddenly be cast to one side and a completely new set of conceptions and motives begin to dominate them.
Granted, a lot has transpired and changed in my life in the past month or so that has drawn me closer to Spirit (which is all powerful) like
the passing of my dear friend/like an older sister, Samara
; attending a healing service; and, having more conscious people in my life to engage in metaphysical and heartfelt conversation. That said, the aforementioned phenomena have, in my mind, impacted my being the greatest.
Among the areas of my life that has markedly felt this shift has been my perspective of and engagement in my current position as a Technical Writer and Trainer contractor in the corporate world in the Phoenix area. It seems that, to my core, I have realized that I AM doing what I came here to do, being in the place I am supposed to be, shining my light - it just happens to be having me in a role with tasks related to technology (and communications, organizational, and administration skills), of which it turns out I have roots to of a long ago time and faraway place. No wonder I've been doing this work in one form or another this entire lifetime (which explains my quick learning curve and enjoyment too)! But only now has it just felt "right." Amazing. All these decades of inner conflict, and now I am at peace and in joy, being me, being of service. It was there along.