A Few Words From Pastor Bryan
Someone asked me this morning how I'm doing emotionally with this holiday season. As the person put it, "How are you? What kind of mood does the Christmas season put you in? Happy? Sad? Quiet? Joyful? And not just the Jesus part. The general mood of the holiday. I know you love the spiritual part..."
I appreciated being asked that question, and I was a bit surprised by my own response. The truth is that for a while, I've not really been all that thrilled with this time of year. Oh yes I love the deeper meanings of the Christmas story. But as far as what happens in our culture this time of year, it often just feels too loaded emotionally, too complicated psychologically, and way too commercialized. All that together has often felt just too heavy at times to me. Not that I don't appreciate all the nostalgia and sentiment and warm family gatherings. I do. And I love all the giving, but I also don't enjoy giving gifts as much when I feel obligated to give them. It usually feels kind of tangled up for me, and I'm also often reluctant to get "too festive" because I don't want to bum out all the people who I know are struggling with losses or grief.
But I feel different this year. Don't get me wrong. I always come around to appreciating most of the beautiful things about this season. But this year feels different to me. I feel somewhat overwhelmed with gratitude and joy, and this morning after being asked that question I wondered why.
And then it hit me. Advent works! The time of preparation. Focusing on Hope, Peace, and Joy, and what those things really mean, and on how to be grounded in those themes as Christmas approaches.
What struck me most is all the ways that these beautiful themes are ultimately about choosing to focus on the "good stuff" rather than on the negative. And all the things my friend asked about--happiness, sadness, quietness, joyfulness--are part of the goodness. They all belong, and this season isn't about any one of them only. It's okay to be sad or introspective. In fact it's wonderful. It's all part of the journey. The fullness of life. There are good reasons for tears sometimes, and it's all part of the gift of being alive and fully human.
Oh I know it's not always that simple, especially when we're in the midst of something extremely painful, or fighting clinical depression or something extraordinarily challenging. But all three of my Advent sermons this year have been about deciding whether or not we really believe what we talk and sing about in church, and about choosing to "put our weight down" on the reality of God's presence and promises--especially when things aren't feeling positive at all.
Well I guess I really can't get away from "the Jesus part." But I'm glad I can't. The simple truth is that this year I'm seeing the Love of Christ everywhere, because I'm looking for it. I'm putting my weight down on it, and it is holding me (and the whole universe!) quite securely. I'm seeing what's already here, what's been with me and us all along, and what's still to come. I'm seeing people being given unexpected blessings when they need them most, and knowing at the moment it happens that it's a kiss from God. I'm seeing people find meaning and hope and reasons to keep their hearts open and to keep risking loving deeply. I'm seeing people reaching out to those who are facing extreme poverty and injustice and trying to help them have a more joyful Christmas and to know they are not alone or forgotten. I'm seeing people question the polarization and angry tone that's been too prevalent in our culture in recent years, and start to look for some different ways of having the conversations we most need to have. I can see God bringing healing and freedom and new life to a lot of people I know. I can see our own faith community growing in depth as well as breadth. It is sacred, and beautiful, and hopeful.
Advent works. This season is full of Love and Light. Christ is with us, and Christ is coming to us. All at the same time. Always. That IS my Story--our Story... and I'm sticking to it! Together with you that is.
I hope to see you at church on Sunday!
Pastor Bryan
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