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Motherhood, Messiness and Light
~Jennifer Dusza
Saint Mary Catholic Church + Schwenksville, Pa.
There are days when everything feels so right, and then, out of the blue, life seems to unravel on me. I didn’t sleep well and I don’t want to get out of bed. My older kids aren’t making the choices I hoped they would. My younger kids are resisting chores and homework. My husband and I had a disagreement. I received constructive criticism at work that deflated my confidence. My mom was unexpectedly admitted to the hospital with a heart attack. My car needs four new tires and we’re already on a tight budget. The list goes on with the things that can wear me down and make me feel little, small, and defeated. But these feelings don’t define who I am.
Jesus said, “You are the salt of the earth. You are the light of the world.” He speaks about my identity, not my feelings. My feelings can change from day to day, minute to minute, but my identity remains the same.
In Matthew 5:13-16, Jesus doesn’t say try to be salt or work harder to be light. He states it as a fact. I AM salt, I AM light. Speaking those words makes me stand a little taller. Salt preserves and gives flavor; light reveals and guides. Even when I feel depleted, distracted, or discouraged, Christ reminds me that my life still has purpose. Salt doesn’t need to be loud to do its job, it simply needs to remain salt. Light doesn’t argue with the darkness; it just shines.
My family doesn’t need my perfection, they need my presence, my love, my courage to get back up and do it a little better tomorrow. Jesus reminds me that I bring flavor to my family, friends, and work environment; I shine my own unique light in these places that no one else can replicate. I am precious and unrepeatable and if I don’t bring my salt and my light who will?
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