The first time someone gave me alcohol I was six years old. I was a hyper kid and a family member gave me beer to calm me down. I grew up in a really rough area and had a very traumatic childhood that included sexual abuse. At 16 I began to drink on my own; I kept drinking until I was 42. During that time, I also became addicted to drugs. As a first generation Mexican American, I didn’t know where I belonged. My Spanish was different from others, my English was different, too. I used substances to try to belong somewhere.
I got arrested a lot. If I wasn’t in jail or prison, I was using. I became suicidal. Substance use scorched my life and everybody who was a part of my life. It was pretty severe.
In March 2011 I got arrested for a DUI in Jefferson County, I didn’t know I had a problem. I attended treatment for several months, but I didn’t understand what was happening to me. There was a counselor there that was also a Certified Recovery Mentor and he talked to me like no one ever had. He had a very compassionate way of speaking to me yet maintained the clinical aspect while he spoke in “alcoholics language” – like one alcoholic to another. He said I had a gift, but I didn’t know what he meant at the time. I didn’t believe in myself, but he turned every negative thing I said about myself, into a positive. He gave me his card and said he would mentor me if I wanted to go to school and become a mentor.
Five months later in November 2012 I got pulled over for another DUI and finally admitted out loud that I was an alcoholic. From there I went to treatment and started going to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings.
It was in college that I asked for help after not being able to focus while taking my exams. I got some mental health counseling and discovered I had undiagnosed ADHD, PTSD, and suffered from suicidal thoughts.
With lots of help, I made it through college and earned several certificates in drug and alcohol counseling and I am now training as a culturally specific gambling counselor. I’ve been working in this field for seven years now and consider it a privilege to give back. I work with the Latino community and know the struggles people can have when language barriers prevent them from understanding the court system or when mental health issues go undiagnosed. As a culturally specific counselor, I can pick up on these things and help others. I’ve learned that this is my gift that my mentor recognized in me.
If a program like the CATT had been available to me during my years of addiction, I could have gotten help – culturally responsive help for both the addiction and my mental health challenges – and maybe not struggled for as long as I did. The CATT will be a tremendous resource for people struggling with substance use in our community and having peers on staff will make a huge difference. What I want people to know is that recovery is possible, and you don’t have to do it alone.
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