Bout With Doubt   
by Bill Edmonds
July 18, 2016

"Doubts are the ants in the pants of faith. They keep it awake and moving." 
For those of you who have never doubted God, don't waste your time reading the rest of this post. For others of you like me who have at one time or another doubted God's interest in your life, His plan for you, or even if He exists at all, read on.
Why believe in a God we can't see? The Bible says " we walk by faith, not by sight ." I don't know about you - I prefer walking by sight. Seeing is believing, right? That's what Jesus' friend Thomas said when the other eleven disciples told Thomas they had seen the risen Christ. Thomas's response: " Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe. " Not only did Thomas say he must see, he said he wouldn't believe unless he could put his finger and hands on his doubt. Sound like us.
Why do we sometimes find it hard to believe in an all-knowing, omnipresent, celestial deity? Could it be we prefer walking by sight? You might say, "If I had been traveling with Moses I could have seen God show up and show out, and it would have erased any doubts I had about God." But God hasn't parted your Red Sea, turned your staff into a snake , or spoken through your donkey (or dog or cat). But if He did we wouldn't doubt anymore. Or would we?
The nation of Israel escaped by the skin of their teeth from Pharaoh's army when The Great I Am parted the sea for the people to walk through. If seeing is believing, why did they say to their leader, Moses, " "Is it because there are no graves in Egypt that you have taken us away to die in the wilderness?
Do you remember a time you purchased a new car? The new car clean...such a smooth ride. We're content with the experience and even elated by it. However, six months later when the new has worn off, and we see somebody driving a nicer car, our elation vaporizes and our contentment wanes.
We humans long for that next experience that will exceed our last one. If God does part our Red Sea, then we'll want him to part our Lake Michigan, and then perhaps our Gulf of Mexico. Next thing you know we'll expect Him to cause our cable TV company to render good customer service (sorry, I couldn't resist). Where does it stop? And if he doesn't deliver, you'll begin to doubt His interest in your life or even His existence.
Here's some good news - you're not alone. The Bible is full of accounts of "heroes of the faith" who doubted God. God's prophet Samuel had anointed David king of Israel. Not too long after that we find him holed up in a cave, running for his life, overcome with loneliness and despair. He says to God, "  Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? " Translation - "Where are you God?"
Here's some more good news - doubt is not the same as unbelief. You can't doubt what you don't believe. The atheist is certain that there is no God so there's no reason to doubt. The fact that you and I have doubt means two things; we believe in something, and we're alive! God welcomes doubt and He's very comfortable with it. That's even more good news!
Tune in next week for Part 2, as we continue this discussion about doubt.
Play to win this week in the game that really counts!
Bill Edmonds is an "Outside-Insider" (an Executive Coach and Consultant), who works with leaders to help them reach their full potential in the areas of organizational and personal development. He spent 24 years with Merrill Lynch until his retirement in 2014, where he led a $100+ million per year revenue wealth management business unit as a Director with the firm. His company is
Northstar Leadership Solutions.