On Yom Kippur 1945 The Klausenberger Rebbe zt’l (R’ YY Halberstam) found himself in Feldafing Displaced-Persons Camp in the south of Germany. The Rebbe, who would eventually build Laniado Hospital in Netanya, had survived unimaginable suffering at the hands of the Nazis including the loss of his wife and 11 children.
The Rebbe was severely weakened from typhus, nevertheless, he insisted on leading the Kol Nidre service in the Displaced Persons Camp. The Rebbe went to stand next to the open ark and began to speak his words directly to Hashem, crying bitterly.
The Rebbe spoke not from the prayer book but straight from his heart. In a wholly unorthodox manner, he called out the words of 'vidui' (the confessional prayer): ‘Ashamnu, bagadnu, gazalnu…’ (‘We have become guilty, we have betrayed, we have stolen..’). Each word was inflected not as a statement but as a question ‘Did we sin? Did we rebel? Did we steal?’ Almost accusatorily the Rebbe asked ‘Did we really rebel? Did we really steal – from whom was there to steal from in Auschwitz and Dachau?’ ‘Dibarnu dofi' – we spoke slander, we didn’t have the energy to speak!’, Latznu – We scorned? Against whom could we do such a thing there?’ Word by word, the Rebbe dismissed each and every alleged sin of the survivors. ‘We did not commit evil acts, we did not sin wilfully, this vidui was not written for us’. The congregation stood in shock at this most unusual approach.
After a pause the Rebbe raised his voice, ‘But we are guilty of sins that are not written in the prayer book – when we recited Shema at night we hoped it would be our last and our suffering in this world would come to an end and we would join our families in the next world. When we woke the next morning and we had to thank Hashem ‘for returning our souls to us with great mercy’ were we not filled with anger and rage? When we removed the corpses from the barracks were we not jealous of those lucky people who had died? We must ask Hashem to restore our faith and trust in Him and we must pour out our hearts before Him'.
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