As some of you know--but many of you don't--my husband Jim passed away suddenly March 15th. It was equally devastating for the family, as he passed almost a year to the day of his sister Kathy's passing.

For you, my clients and spiritual family, my intuitive abilities are gifts, allowing you to prepare for things before they happen, or avoid them if you choose. But for me, during this time, my gifts were a blessing but also an emotional challenge to manage. I knew even as he was admitted into the hospital, he would never come home again--home to me, home to his special overstuffed green chair, home to his comfortable bed, home to Vinnie our new cat, home to drive his 1996 Red Ford 150 pickup truck. Knowing that, I walked home from the hospital with a heavy heart for over two weeks.

However, as the priest reminded us at Jim's funeral mass, death on earth is not the end of the story. We transition from our physical body into a spiritual life which has no end. As an additional reminder, Jim passed during the beginning of spring and during the beginning of Holy Week, marking not just death but also our spirit's rebirth and resurrection into eternal life.

One of Jim's favorite folk songs was "The Circle Game" by Joni Mitchell. I want to end by quoting the last verse from that song:

"So the years go by and now the boy is twenty

Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true

There'll be new dreams maybe better dreams and plenty

Before the last revolving year is through..

And the seasons they go round and round...

We're captive on the carousel of time

We can't return, we can only look behind

From where we came

And go round and round and round

In the circle game.

The Miracles Death Brings

As I said in my eulogy to Jim, "Death holds many miracles if you can move past your grief to see them. Very, very fortunately, I could.

Let's begin with the number 6. Jim's birthday was August 6th. He used to say that anything significant that happened in is life added up to six. He always gave me many examples.

Jim passed away on March 15th. Fifteen adds up to a 6. He passed at 3:30, another six. His funeral mass was on March 24th, another 6. I can't have access to his financials until April 15, another 6. And those are the ones I can remember. I'm sure there are more.

Jim was a simple man who loved to grow his big red summer heirloom tomatoes. He had a mailbox in the garden to hold all his gardening tools. In there was tomato twine. I wanted to use the twine to tie around his funeral program. I didn't think there would be enough, so I went to his favorite hardware to buy more. I also didn't think it would match what was in his mailbox. So his sister and I bought two rolls of twine. Just 5 minutes later we arrived home, only to find the mailbox completely open. We were stunned, and went over to see why. There on the ground--the only thing that had fallen out-- was Jim's tomato twine! His sister and I laughed. We knew we had to use to it to tie around Jim' s brochure. And guess what? We had just enough to do all 150 brochures!

Jim spent his last day at the hospital with three of us--myself, his soul brother from Landmark School Bob and his wife Maida. Suddenly I noticed that his Lady of Good Voyage medal, with the Blessed Mother holding a sailing ship. wasn't around his neck. I knew that he had to have it around his neck before he passed. The nurses had taken it off for dialysis. I rushed to find it in one of his clothing bags. We tried to place it over his head but we couldn't. So I held it in my hand.

I also knew that Jim wouldn't pass without the two people closest to him, myself and Bob, in the room. So I told them that we all had to leave. On the way off the floor, I handed the medal to the head nurse and said that it had to be placed around his neck immediately. We weren't even 5 minutes away, when I got a call from the nurses' station. "Jim passed away," they tearfully said. And the nurse, who was crying, said: "How did you know? He went as soon as I placed the holy medal around his neck." How did you know??"

 Because Spirit has a way of guiding us what to do at the precise time we need that guidance. All I did was listen.