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To heal from grief I need to accept.
I created these paintings attempting to process my experiences of fear, confusion, regret, grief… mixed with moments of joy, humor and hope while navigating age, illness and loss of my Mom.
The healing journey can seem very dark, lonely and insurmountable. Along the way there are glimmers of light. Connections…
Sharing, supporting, denying, accepting life's journey to death: dealing with health issues and systems - the chaos, the universality, the strength, the determination and energy.
I began "DNA" and "holding court" with the application of pills to the canvas. I noted that some of the pharmaceuticals absorbed and some did not – some transformed and some did not ... hindering the painting process and aiding the painting process - much like in the body.
I initially painted very darkly then added glimmers of color and light, much the same as we see things when we are confronted with the harsh realities of illness. As we continue the journey, we celebrate the victories no matter how small or large.
Though extremely grateful for my Mom's care, I fear for the availability of good health care for myself, those around me and others - young and old. But, against all odds we can always find glimpses of spirit.
Subsequently I am trying to heal from the loss of my baby sister and brother. I am trying to connect to my mom’s resilience and strength. I am trying to see the glimmers of light.
These three paintings were exhibited at Evanston Art Center and "Broken Silence" was exhibited at Old Courthouse Art Center.
LED synchronized lighting will light these paintings for the first time.
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